Daycare

 A bright morning. The day is big and blue and clean.
White snowbanks line the sidewalk like mountain ranges. Birds are chirping, and this is a surprise– a memory of music revived after a long dormancy. Each day I enter now linked to one previously lived. Today is the ghost-image of my father and I cross-country skiing in the Gatineau Hills. Those days limitless and expanding. Each one just so full of space.

And today, some 40 years later, Jones and I are walking on the sidewalk between snowbanks on our way to daycare. But Jones is an adventurer, he needs more life than that, so I help him up to the mountains. We’re holding hands as he balances on the changing topography, and he could not be happier. “I’m taller than you, daddy!”, he shouts. The sun is behind us, our long shadows cast before us like a path. Jones the long one, mine the short. He looks at me, smiling, “Daddy, are you happy?” A question of such unexpected beauty. My radiant beast, so vividly alive, caring whether his father is happy or not. I tell him that I am very happy, that I could not be happier, in fact, and Jones says, “I’m happy, too!” And so we continue, both stronger now. The sunlight bouncing off the thin membranes of ice covering the branches in the trees above us. Everything imperishable.